I have so many mixed feelings about what happened.  He killed himself.  How can someome be so sad to not want to live?  He has a daughter.  She is one of the prettiest girls you have ever seen with long curly hair and puppy dog eyes.  She is just beautiful.  How could he want to leave her in this world?  If that is not inspiration to live I dont know what is. 
Before I had a family, before I got married, I was one sick girl.  I tried to end my life several times, two times I ended up in the hospital because I could not stop throwing up all the pills I had taken.  I tried and tried, each time taking more and more than the last time and I never left what I thought was my miserable life.  I felt like I had nothing to live for.  It hurt to get up in the morining.  I was full of guilt and sadness.  I was too deep in a whole and had given up trying to get out.  I was just going to sit in the whole and die. 
Now I look back and think, how can one person consume a whole bottle of Mini-Thins which is just ephedrine and not die?  It was a miracle, I guess there was a better life in store for me.