Tuesday, March 15, 2005
Top story today, son acts up in daycare, and other news
Yup you read right. He is a terror in daycare. I had been called to the director's office yesterday about his behavior. He has been hiting and fighting and throwing toys, you name it he has done it. I talk to him but I still think he does not quite understand. I know it has a lot to do with his speech. So once again I have called the elementary school that has to give the evaluation and they refuse to stop giving me the run around. So tomorrow moring I will be at the office and hopefully talk to a live person. I tried to call and get him set up for an evaluation out of our own pocket with his insurance but it is just too too much money. With the school disctrict it is free because he is already three years old. So fingers crossed that I will get somewhere tomorrow morning and my time will not be wasted. He acts up in school but he does not act like this at home. He gives me no problems when I drop him off in the morning. I am praying that this is the problem that he is having. And that once he starts to communicate better then he will do better in daycare....
I will update on this situation tomorrow...
oh and now Russell's stupid paycheck has not been depositied....
why are the powers that be trying to make me go insane? I am a good person! Why!! Why do I feel like pulling my hair out! Why cant I have just one week stress free? Just one week? Is that so much to ask for??? I hit wall after wall after wall. If it is not one thing screwed up in my life it is another...
How come this happens?
oh boy....
marcia
Monday, March 14, 2005
I still have not recived my tax return. I have just given up on my check. It is just frustrating! But oh well that is the story of my life.
This weekend was just horrible...
Russell went out again on friday with his bestfriend. I really hate this guy. He has no responsibilities whatsoever. I told Russell that I hate when he goes out friday. That I wake up friday morning just dreading the night because he is not there. I told him that the more he goes out with him the more I hate him. I cant belive that I actually told him that! Russell told me that I needed to be honest with him if I did not what him to go, so I was. I hope that was honest enough! So that was Friday.
Saturday morning Russell goes to his dad's to help him cut the yard. His dad gets in his pissy moods sometimes and this was one of those times. Russell was cutting the grass with the weed eater. He has done this many times before at our place. This is how my grandpa used to do the yard. Well his dad started giving him a hard time about using the weedeater. Russell told him that was the way he does it. Well some ugly words were exchanged and Russell grabbed lil Russ and they left. So now they are fighting. I am glad that Russell stood up for himself. His dad should of appreciated that he was there on his day off to help him out. Why are some people this way?
Sunday me and Russell got into a small argument about him not picking up after himself. I told him if he does not care if he gives me more to do on top of what I already have to do then no one does. I dont ask him to do anything. I take care of the kids and dinner and laundry and sometimes I clean the house. All I ask is that he takes out the trash. Puts his shoes under the bed. Picks up his dishes. If he takes a shirt off the hanger and does not wear it to hang it back up! It is not that hard!! He said that he was sorry and that he is going to do what I ask...yea we will see how long that goes on for...
that is my life in a nutshell...
marcia
Thursday, March 10, 2005
and it is pissing me off!! It is all Russell's fault.
My dad said they are kicking it back because we filed married last year, which I told Russell for us NOT to file together but he was so hard headed. Not only am I having all these problems right now but we did not get a refund because it went to his backpay childsupport. I was so so pissed that happened last year. He should of listened to me...
So now I have to wait some more!!!
I just want to scream!!!
marcia
Negative negative!! Still negative
Still no refund check...
My account is negative 454.00
When I get paid tomorrow I will have nothing after me being negative and paying the truck...
Russell does not get paid till Tuesday.
And of course Russell has no clue.
This is why I stress everyday.
And it is no ones fault but my own, I should of known this would happen. I have been waiting for that refund check for almost three weeks!!! Any day now!! it can't come soon enough.
At least things are looking up for Russell. It looks like a sure thing that he will get the job he wants! I am so happy for him! He will probably start in two weeks.
We are also still moving out at the end of April. I am excited but yet nervous. I have not lived away from my grandma since before I had kids. I am a little afraid to be without her near by.
Well that is all for now...
marcia
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
Still no check. It turns out that my dad did not listen to me when I told him that my social security card and my W2 have different names....I still have not changed it yet...So my refund is yet again delayed...which now I am almost 500 bucks overdrawn in the bank....I am so frustrated over this!! I know it is partly my fault...but still frustrating...
on a happier note...the visit with Russell and his former co-worker went great....he said there are positions available. He called the manager last night and he seemed very excited to hear about Russell. He is going to fill out his application today and hopefully will have an interview by the end of the week...and he can tell his current job to SHOVE IT!!! Since they say that he works too slow and they can do his work in half the time...well we are just going to see about that!!
If anyone reads this please keep you fingers crossed for him...
marcia
Monday, March 07, 2005
bad bad news..never anything happy for me...
Still has not come in. I am growing very impaitent. I have overdrawn my account depending on my check. I know that was my fault. I should have never thought that something would go right for me, not even this once. Nothing ever goes my way...
And to make matters worse Russell hates his job. I know they treat him like shit. I wish I could just call them up and give them a peice of my mind. They have no right to make him feel they way they do.
I repeated the famous quote
"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent" -Elenor Roosevelt
I hate that he feels like crap because then he is not a happy person at home. This job is making him ugly!! He is going to see a man that he used to work with after he gets off from work. Fingers crossed that something good will come out of this visit...
marcia
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
Look at this face!! I love it!!! To see more click on her picture!!
My dad still drives me nutts!!
My dad continues to drive my nutts.
He made me feel like I am usless and that I dont help out. Geez I do what I can! My grandma says I did not talk to her for two days. I spent all weekend with her. Sunday we woke up late, went to church, came home and just hung around the house. I was tired. I told my dad we were thinking of moving out and he says he wished I would have discussed it with him. HELLO! I would have if he would return my calls. Then he said he was sleeping I said ok-then don't be saying I didn't duscuss it with you. GGRRRR!!! Yes we have been back and forth about this but nothing was set in stone. Shoot those people have not even moved out yet! Everything is still up in the air. Just the tone of his voice, when he tells me that his mom is his responsibility just erks me. I dont like it. He says my brother was selfish moving in thinking he could do what he wanted. Well that is not my fault. He just gets me so upset. I always try to call him but he never calls me back and then I get lectured for not discussing things with him. But he will always be right and I will always be wrong.
And people need to stop worrying about my marriage. I am not the one with problems. My brother is the one with problems. His wife is leaving him because he is a jerk to her. I understand they are concerned, but stop making me feel like my husband is so horrible. Next time they say something I am going to ask, no, tell them if they would feel beter if I left him. If that would make them happy.
Why does family have to act that way? ugh...
I am sick of everyone saying how much I have changed...maybe it has a lot to do with them. They say that I just never look happy anymore. I just have a lot on my mind. I am constantly worrying about something, my kids, myself, bills, just everyday things. I was good about hiding all of my worries, I just can't hide them anymore.
My dad always says that I dont talk to him anymore. I just don't want to go to him with my problems. I dont want him to see my failures. I am always seeking their approval. I have always been like this. When I was younger I had more going in my life that they approved of...not anymore.
that is my vent for the day...
oh and update on the house. We love it!!! It is just perfect for us!!
marcia |
Monday, February 28, 2005
We might be moving out soon...
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Like this weekend...
Well Russell called me and said that there is a house that is for rent. It is 450/month and it is two bedroom and one bath. It also has a yard. I am so nervous to see it. What if it is ugly? I want to move out and then I dont. I have always lived with my grandma. I know that if we do move out she is not going to take it well. But we are so smooshed at home. We have no room. The kids need their own room for all their toys and such. We just need more space. We have outgrown out little apartment. Tonight we are going
to see it. I am excited and nervous...
marcia
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Sunday, February 27, 2005
I just wanted him to hear me whine...
I swear I hate him sometimes....
I was soppose to go out tonight with the girls. I got a headache while we were at Sears and when my friend called I said that I doubt I would be going out becaues I had a bad headache. Well to my surprise my headache went away really fast. So called her and left a message, and called and called and called. Well Russell said since I was not going out that he wanted to go to Ronnie's house again. I swear the more he goes to visit him the more I hate him. I just get so frustrated because I have to make plans a week in advance to go out, and he can just jump up, spur of the moment and just go. That is what pisses me off. I cant do that because he cant handle both of the kids by himself. So I have to suffer for it. I called him and I just wanted to tell him how I felt. Well he was too busy to hear me whine. I just wanted him to know how I felt but he was too busy. That pisses me off even more.
Why does my life have to be this way? I hate him sometimes I swear I hate him sometimes..
marcia |
